So, I've decided to start a blog. I wanna see if I can keep it up, because if I can, I think it might be a sign that I'm becoming a better person. Since starting college, the only writing I've been doing has been papers for classes. No matter how much I've told myself that I was going to write a new play, or some poetry, it just never happens, and I want to harness some more self-control. It isn't fair to myself to only do something that I like when I'm forced to, especially because people have been telling me lately (unsolicitedly) how good they think I am. I'm hoping that maybe if I actually start writing again for myself that I'll start to believe them.

I've also been going through some shit. I've never been one to believe what people say about writing being an escape. To me, writing forces me to dive deeper into myself than is comfortable. It takes a lot of energy to articulate emotions even close to exactly. Having gone through what I have, though, I've seen that writing helps me comprehend things in order to release their burden on my head and heart. 

I don't really want or expect anyone to read this. I just want to gain some fulfillment in moving forward and put my lamenting to good use.